Fear based thinking is still the enemy, and seeing through the eyes of love is a challenge. Especially when the avoidance of pain is even more of a primal motivation for us creatures than the pursuit of pleasure is.. But I am encouraged by the fact that if I am pursuing a calling, nothing else matters. If not, then better to know it now. Anyway, I am reminded that every day, every other calling seems just more and more confusing. What makes sense, is what makes the most sense (I hope you caught that!) Trusting God will provide is the hardest thing, right up there with asking for help, that is the hardest thing for me of all- I just don't approve of that in myself. If walking with God seems counter-intuitive, then what of walking alone? You usually just end up sitting there.
Ain't no one left to follow, once you have put your trust into the Immortal One... No one can ever come close to that intensity. He takes you farther than anything else has ever taken you into the aching abyss of "the human soul." and then he seems to leave you there... for a period, just to see how you do, if you will walk off a cliff in search of someone else, or if you will trust Him in the deep dark fog of uncertainty.. That decision can be quite a frightening conjecture... without His promises.
I have no one left to follow, but You, Lord.
I cannot fail.
Adam
ReplyDeleteI am so grateful to our Lord that you are my nephew, in a family of believers that cheer you on and pray for you. Watching you grow physically and spiritually has been a remarkable testimony. As we watch your journey and pray for every step, we will sponsor you with what little we have during difficult times. However, God will grow it abundantly, according to his will, and we are confident that you will get on this mission and it will be a blessing for all.
We love you Adam. Keep us posted!
Love Kathy, Jordan and Larry
Great job Adam!! Keep following the IMMORTAL ONE!!! I will keep praying. :)
ReplyDeleteYou guys are the best! ;-) lol
ReplyDeleteThanks alot!
I am going to haunt you with prayers....!.... So better Get ready.
Later